Believe. All I ask, at the moment anyway, is that you believe. Believe in what? Believe in me. I will prove myself, and I will make you see. Believe in me. Believe in yourself, and me. It can and will happen, we've came this far, and we've fought this much. Believe.

Open your mind, see what I see, and know what I know. See, and know, all the worlds out there for us to find. Explore each and every moment that is out there, be open. I know you have it in you, as they knew I had it in me.

To what end I write this for is to the end to write it. Simply, it needed to be put to pen and paper, or in this case, to keyboard and monitor. An idea that was passing through the filters of my mind that was caught, and kept, cleaned, and reviewed until I knew every minute detail. And still, ask me what it's about, and I cannot explain. It's about you and me, everything and nothing, all of that in the same moment; and yet, it never happened.

These words are being put in through a series of little electronic signals, each acting together to give the desired effect. Much like life, if you will. Each day we go through the routine of living, but is it for someone else's desired effect? Is there someone out there that is watching over us, guiding us? I'd like to think so, but on the other hand, I hate the idea.

What would you do, if you were like a child's toy racecar, stuck on a track, and going around and around until they finally shut you off? Me, I'd love to jump the track and go where I desired, do what I wanted. As we know though, that is nearly impossible. At least, to an extent. Sure we can do what we want in life, but to a set limit designed by people of the past who had no idea what today would be like. We must follow these set acceptances, or be faced with excommunication from society, or worse. We cannot be ourselves without dire consequences, and we cannot do as we wish. I'm not saying we should be allowed to do everything we wish, but in today's standards, we are held back. We're being controlled by the world, and by whoever let it come to this.

Is this control for our best interest? Is it for our safety? Some would have us believe so; some would have us think otherwise. Some would have us think for ourselves. Which option is the best? Who can say until we experience each thing? No one, because it'd only be speculation. Yes, the other ways may lead to chaos, but it may lead to more. Are you a person to take chances? I am, and I'd like to see what else we might be. Will we have the chance? I sure hope so, but for some reason I doubt it.

To get back to an earlier point, are we guided through life by "the one above," whoever that may be, or are we set on our own decisions? For me, I think it's a matter of both. Sure, there is someone out there helping us, but it isn't "the one above." It's our friends, our lovers, our family, and not in that order. They are the ones, if they chose that responsibly, who help us day by day, minute by minute, breath by breath. Of course, many don't chose that, and will let you hurt as you will. Me, though? Come to me, and I will do what I will. Ask me, and I will give what I can. I may have my moments where, due to personal difficulties, I may not be able to help, but I'll be damned if I don't try. Damned by myself, damned by my heart, mind, and soul.

The only one who sets our fate is the person you see in the mirror each time you brush your teeth and other things. We decide what we do day by day, and we pay for the wrong choices along with rejoicing in the right way. And along that note, my right isn't your right. My wrong isn't your wrong. I am not you, you are not I, and I pity you if you ever wanted to be me. You are yourself, and despite what you may think, you are someone, and you have your own talents. It takes time to find those, and that I'll admit.

Where this is going, I've lost track. Where it's been, I need to look back to read. Where it is, is where I want it to be and it's right here. Beneath your nose is your life, and your life is in your hands.

Believe in me, and know I can do what I say. Believe in yourself, and you will make it day through day. Believe in the worlds out there, because out there they are. Believe in yourself, and your own beliefs. Let no other change them.

Now, I hope so anyway, that your mind is open, do me a favor. Keep it open, and keep it focused. Don't let it get closed by the rules and limitations that are set out there today. It's what is most unhealthy for you. Never let anyone else decide who you are, or what you think. Open yourself, and live.

::December 22, 2002 10:00 AM

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