The charade is failing
My arms wildly flailing
And I can't hold it up
To fail now
Is to ruin it all
Way before it ever began
To end it before it starts
And from the beginning it was me
Out and the third
And soon thought I was one
But was another of the third
Why do I even try to kid?
I am just fooling myself.
I will never be one and only
No one could want me like that
And yet a few have
Only for me to fuck it up
To show how I am fucked up
I can't take this anymore
I cannot do this trip
I can't take this pain
I cannot do it anymore
With the weight on my shoulders
The charade crushing me down
And my body crumbles
And my heart just fades
So I let it all fall
And cover me deep
To crawl my way back out
And look you in the eye
Will you see how I feel?
Will you see how I hate him?
Will you see how I care for you?
Will you see and return these things?
For now, I think not.
As for you both said
He is yours and you are his
And I am mine and no one elses
With this hands I shall hold you
And with these eyes I shall regard you
And with these lips I sahll kiss you gently
And with this heart... I think I love you already
And when I spoke this, you chided me
And so I come to see you
And come to find truth
Or maybe just to see
If I am the fool I see in the mirror
When I gaze into it each day
And the fool just smirks
And laughs with glee.

::March 4, 2003 03:35 PM

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