You give me this,
You tell me to build,
You show me pain,
You tell me to adapt,
You kill me here,
You tell me to be again.
I watch and learn
I hear and obey
I taste and shudder
For the pain brought
down upon my head
Will be more
More than I have ever felt
My eyes locked to your's
Tell me now, was it you?
That told me to die...
That made me feel pain...
That showed me the shadows...
That brought me to the light...
My body trembling within your grasp
Feeling you all around me
Pulling me yet closer
Little nothings whispered
Earth-shattering sights to be seen
All within your blazing eyes
Your hands feeling
Grasping my fading form
Trying to preserve me
Wanting to pervade me
All for your self.
Tell me now
Those words again
I shall learn and be me
I will not fall again
Into the depths of your arms
Into the fires of your eyes
Into the wastelands of your soul.
It was always about you
My pain being shoved aside.
It was forever for you
And I had to abide.
It was easier for you
And I was to die.
To dream of it again
Within my own mind
To see you here again
And hold you within my arms.
Just leave me, and let it be
Let the past be buried
I want to move on.
Just go now
Leave me within the shadows
To become one myself
Leave now, leave me
To be broken since that day.
A broken shadow within my mind,
Of what I once was
Of what I could be.

::March 4, 2003 03:31 PM

.........................................................................